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after all dis... i changed... haha...

first of all, i kinda became maturer than b4... not realli mature buh maturer than b4... n i think diff now... juss in a diff way... guess itz good mayb?!

secondli, well itz not a good thing 2 sai... buh... face da truth... i lost all my feelins... dun b suprise... itz troo... n i dun think i can change dat now.... 2 late... haha.... aprilz a cold animal now~~ ^^ haha

List of da reasons dat i should 4get bout boys...

10. I hab so many tests comin up:sci regents, S.S. state exam, math state exam, spanish proficiency

9. I hab to make da summer natz:need spend time to think bout my strokes n work out.... wherever...

8. nobodi like like me (itz a fact, dun argue wit me)

7. everybodi likes me (as a friend)..so y do i need a guy?

6. my heart iz not strong enough 2 like anybodi rii now. itz alot weaker than u thought...(trust me!)

5. 2 much failures... heart broken... n lost all my confidence

4. i need time 4 myself after all dis.... im tired... y dun i juss... chill.... n time will come sooner or later...yup!

3. i like da realationship wit kev rii now. we can talk bout anythin... wellz.. at least i can tell him bout everythin... hahaz...~

2. im afraid dat any other boi i will like later... will also b JayZ's shadow....(no need to understand dis... )

1. n most of all... boys r jerks... we should throw rocks at them!! jk... hehe... ^^

last night i learned 2 things... one thing iz dat im a coward...(dun say im not bc... i am) im so afraid of gettin hurt... so i "avoid" things all da time... i neva knew how 2 actualli face my problems... i juss run n hide... like if datz gonna help... buh at the end... problems r still dere... nothinz gonna change... n by dat time, i probabli juss hurt myself even more...

n another thing iz dat i hate pplz pity at me. i learned from kev dat get pity at iz not a pleasant thing... buh i neva knew how unpleasant it iz. n now i juss experienced 1... a real 1... it feels horrible when the pplz u care bout dun do anythingelse buh juss pity at u when they c u feelin down......

thanks 4 ur time to actualli read my crap!~ ^^

ok... my days r so borin!~

k dis iz my friends problem..... she likes a guy... n da guy doesnt like her.... then she feels she can 4get bout him.... buh then she cant...... n now she knos da guy likes sumbodi..... even tho she wants him to get a grl he realli like... buh her heart hurts so much... n she cant help it....

xD yea blah blah blah..... hu cares rii??

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well.... if i hab 1~~ lolz...

how many times hab i been wishin to hab a bf..... ah 4get it........... juss like i told my friends: timeznot here yet... it will b here sonner or later... so... heh... n im still depressed inside bc of.... buhh... i will 4get bout him.... i will 4get bout him witout usin da "hate" strategy.... i dun necessary hab to hate him to 4get bout him...... I CAN DO IT IN PEACE!!!!!! xD